Discovering myself...

I have often tried to write about myself….figuring out what kind of person I am..what interests me the most..and so on.. but describing oneself is one of the hardest things to do. I am giving it yet another try…


So where do I begin..ohk..first of all ‘Pallavi’ means thematic line of a song. It also means something new or fresh.


I have many shades. Sometimes I am an innocent child, a sensible friend, helping and caring sister, a responsible daughter but at times I act as a satupid and spoilt child, an idiotic friend, a mean sister and a reckless daughter. Whatever be my shade, most of the times I am quite predictable.


I love to write. Its my way of expressing myself. I like to give an unbiased opinion of whatever I see but sometimes emotions get in the way and I tend to sound unfair. I am okay with that too..afterall I am what I am.


I love myself and I believe until and unless one learns to appreciate himself/herself they can not appreciate others.When I am happy I tend to do everything that I love..talk to my friends..(a lot..!!  ), write, dance, paint and so on….When I am sad..I feel like a warrior struggling with something very complicated and difficult..I try to be alone for sometime and then I cry. But that also lasts for just a few minutes coz my automatic mood recovery system takes care of the fact that I don’t remain sad for a long time…:)


My experiences with life have evolved me a lot..particularly in the last two years and I feel like I am totally changed, but for good. I believe everything happens for a reason and minimizing the regrets in life makes it a lot better.


People seem like puzzles which I always want to solve, including me. Their emotions in different circumstances and how that turns up different situations always interests me.
I am a little crazy when it comes to work. I love to take initiatives in things that interests me and when it comes to doing some team work..I always end up in giving that extra bit of effort..which sometimes make some people think I am like Monica..(FRIENDS). Can’t help it though..I am a typical VIRGO…a perfectionist.


I like to dress up sometimes, without any occasion. Looking good makes me feel good. Although I believe simplicity beats everything. Looking simple yet elegant is my thing.
I love food though I am not such a great fan of cooking myself. Golgappe, chocolates, ice cream (particularly in winters), rajma chawal, chole bhature and south indian..I love
it all.


I love nature and I love to travel(though I havent been able to do that a lot!!). And I simply love rain, my personal favorite being the smell of wet mud which comes when the first few drops falls down. I feel connected with nature and it always brings a smile on my face. Going to new places broadens my perception and of course gives me a new experience.


I can’t live without music. Its salvation for my soul. I love to listen to songs depending on my mood. Soft music helps me get a sweet sleep. Romantic music makes often makes me want to fall in love. Dhinchak and happy music makes me go rock and
roll.


I love my family. My parents are the ones for whom I’ll do anything, literally anything. They define Love for me and that is why when I go out searching for true love I can’t coz nothing can beat what they have for me.
My brother is till now my best buddy. I have been feeling very lonely since he left me. 
Though I am now used to his absence….but sometimes I miss him a lot!!


I love to read. There is always a book on my bedside table. I believe reading makes me express myself better.


I get along with people fairly well. If I cannot get along with someone, I prefer to be nowhere around them. Incommunicado is better than spewing fire. I make sure that I am non-existent and non relevant to them. It works well with me.. Live and let live.


I was the kind of person that can easily fall for someone. I still am, but I’ve learnt how to handle it properly. Now that I know myself much better, I believe that life has its own way of giving you the right hints when you meet the right person. All you need is to take your own time to know which hints to take up and decide.


I like to believe in the good part of horoscopes, the happy ending of movies and basically everything that pamper my fantasies..Like every girl I have been brought up like a princess and I love to take a break from the real world whenever possible. Now this doesn’t mean I am an escapist..I love to struggle and giving up is the last option for me!
Reaching somewhere before time is not at all my thing! This is definitely one of the bad things in me but I like to be Just ON time..


My school friends (my gang) are a living testimony of what I was and what I am. They’ve seen me laugh, cry, struggle.. I am a lot more myself and life is a bed of roses when I am with them.


The Moody Blues (thats my College gang!  ), one of the most important part of my life is a group of amazing and weird people…we do all the crazy stuff..from celebrating numerous birthdays..to countless treats…from studying together in exams to killing the entire day doing absolutely nothing….! With them, two years of boring engineering just flew away and now I can’t even imagine my life without them.


I like to explore new things..and I hate monotony in life. Life is all about changes and experiences..whether good or bad..they are unique to us and make us the way we are…!!!


This is all I have for now….Still discovering myself….