Music and Melody....

Songs merely meant lyrics to sing along before you explained me what music actually is!

When you played your guitar, feeling every note...When you sang along..feeling every word..I realised that music is something that touches not only your heart but even your soul!

Whenever I heard you singing I always thought I am not a music person..coz I could neither sing melodiously like you..nor could I play like you!

But still I could feel it..in every song I listened to..the depth of every word..melody of every note...! I could appreciate its power..its amazing quality to help me think whenever I found myself strangled in any situation..making me cry whenever I tried to keep the sad feelings inside me and making me smile when I got an instant flashback of the happy moments..:)

Though I lack that natural talent, the fact that I can feel it makes me a music person too..! Even my name means 'thematic line of a song!'..and that kind of explains how I can feel music so much!! ;)

  

This post is dedicated to you buddy!..:)

Missing the infinite torcher you gave me..(when you kept playing one song so many times that I eventually began hating it!!)...our endless duets..(where I used to spoil all your awesome songs! :P)..you bugging me every once in a while for a song suggestion and the lovely sound of your guitar..(& you begging me to record it!)!

Hoping to listen to your songs very soon....:)

A sweet feeling..

How amazingly sweet is to fall in love??


I am pretty sure I havent felt anything close to that..but sometimes..when I imagine any thing like that..I always end up in my own little fantasy world!!


The person who loves you knows the real you and he'll accept that in a heartbeat! 
You just tend to be a cute little kid..and he the caring one...!
He will make you smile no matter whatever your situation was a moment ago..!
You'll be angry..or appear to be so..whenever he doesnt take care of himself..and both of u know..you care way too much..!
Being there..just with each other..makes you forget everything..and u never want that moment to fade away......coz u know you are meant for each other!!!! :)

YES! He's there...

No matter how messed up and critical things get..there is always a little undying hope which tells us that everything will be all right..It isn't that bad as it seems...


But then, often it gets worse. Even though you've been really strong for a while.. at some point you get scared of the consequences..the present state and the possible outcomes...! Totally helpless and clueless!  Nothing seems to be in your hands anymore!


The omnipresent sacred soul then comes to your rescue..! Fully aware of the complexity of your situation you somehow tend to have faith in him..the belief that he's there and he just might be gracious enough to bestow his blessings upon you, merciful enough to open the new doors when everything else seems impossible..! 


You might not be lucky enough to witness a miracle, but that little prayer can offer you what you need the most at that time..peace of mind enabling ability to think clearly and act, and most importantly a restoration of that faith!! 


I believe that anything wished with pure heart and good intentions has the power to come true...the belief that God will lead you there just makes the journey easy!  :)

"Kuch aur"...

"गम  सब  की  ज़िन्दगी  में  हैं  लेकिन  दूसरों की  छोटी  सी  ख़ुशी  में  शामिल  होने  का  मज़ा ही  कुछ  और  है..

पास  नहीं  तो  क्या ..किसी  की  याद   में  मुस्कुराने   का  एहसास  ही  कुछ  और  है...

बारीश  सबको  भाती है  पर  उन  चंद   बूंदों   से   महकी   गीली   मिटटी   की   खुशबू  की बात  ही  कुछ  और  है ..

कितने  भी   नए   रिश्ते   बन   जाएँ  ..पर   पुराने   दोस्तों   से   मिलने   की   ख़ुशी  ही   कुछ   और  है ..

माँ  पापा   की   डांट  तो  सब  सुनते  है ..लेकिन  उनकी  एक  मुस्कराहट  का  कारण  बनने   का  मज़ा   ही  कुछ  और  है ..

शब्दों  के  जरिये  दिल   का  हाल  तो  सब  समझ   जाते   है..कोई  तुम्हारी  आँखें  पढ़  के सब  समझ  जाये  तो  बात  ही  कुछ  और  है ...

चाहे  जितना  आगे  बढ़  जाये  इस  तेज़  रफ़्तार  ज़िन्दगी  में ..दो  पल  रुक  कर  कुछ  ना  करने   का  मज़ा  ही  कुछ  और  है ........"

What a world it was...!

How beautiful that tiny world was...where getting our share of chocolate was justice..and achievement of the day was to win a cricket match or a game of ludo! Promises were always meant to be kept...friends were a part of our soul..exams were the only hurdles..little fights turned our world upside down..and that mischievous smile was never far away....! :)


I miss that innocence..that wittiness..the cute smile which even the eyes reflected..! 
Life followed some simple rules...Good and Bad were so well defined.. Good was when you helped others..Bad was when you tried to cheat or lie...School & homework were the only big tasks for the day..a fixed routine followed automatically..time to eat, time to play, time to sleep..!


The rules have been modified..life has changed...a lot! Sometimes I wish I was a little kid again..when ignorance was justified..mistakes were easily forgiven and  worrying about my future wasn't my responsibility at all..! Life was so simple back then...


There was a time when I wanted to grow up quickly..to do all that which I couldn't being a kid..
Now, I miss those precious old days....

Love Yourself! :)

In this fierce competitive world, no one is ever contented with what they've got. Sometimes you tend to compare yourself with others..and often you tend to think that there is something wrong with you...


Lately I've realised that being inspired with someone is good..but losing your own self..your very identity in the due process of being someone you are not, trying to achieve something which is not meant for you..lands you in a place where the inner happiness is missing...


One thing which always helps me to get on the right track is when I realise my own importance. 
Thinking about what or why I did so..no use!  Thinking about what will happen next...no use! Yet..I do this often..
I "forgive" but usually I don't "forget" ...but then, I also accept the fact that as time passes by..even my memory tends to fade away the less important things..


The whole funda is "Love yourself"..trying to change yourself even though for your own good..is sometimes not possible.! Coz u can't change the very trait of your personality..the very essence of YOU! 



No matter how clumsy, careless & undisciplined you are..no matter how organised, perfect & punctual you are...everyone has their own way of doing things. You do it best when it is done your way..;)


Learn to face life being you..it can be quite a task at times but when u do it...your way..the "I am what I am" feeling is really amazing! :)

Changes...

The sun has begin to bid an early "goodbye", dusk & dawn have become a little chilly...signs of onset of one of my favorite seasons!! 


The cold which sends a tingle through your body and you cant help shivering..and at that time "coffee" and "tea" become your buddies, giving you a heaven like feeling!
And when you just stay outside in the night..the icy wind touching your face makes it so numb that you are unable to feel your nose after a while...! I don't know why but I like this one the most..;)
Not to forget..the amazing feeling when you have an icecream...! :)

Foggy mornings..unwillingness to get out of my warm and snuggly quilt...kind of struggling to get ready..then sunlight brightening my day..welcoming me outside...the same sun that seemed scorching feeling soothing...and nights just getting a little longer..darker..and of course colder....!! I love it all..:)


Sunshine is delicious,rain is refreshing, wind braces you up, snow is exhilarating..!
Nature has the amazing capability of teaching us so many things! Of all..it teaches us the importance of transitions in life. How boring and monotonous life would be if everyday you experience the same weather outside, for instance.  
"Changes" -they keep the spirit of living alive in us! And surprisingly, almost effortlessly we get accustomed to these changes..

Unconditional love!!

"Health is Wealth" - a very common saying..!  But if you consider it practically, at times you tend to lose some of this wealth. Your system breaks down often, like when you have fever..sometimes as high as 102-103 degrees fahrenheit! You feel dizzy and weak..and generally, people don't have any idea about what is happening around them. (There are some exceptions though..I've seen people working all fine in that condition and I just wonder how they manage to do it..!! )

I experienced all this some time back..and the only thing I remember is..I woke up after a nap..did not have much idea about what was going around..went to my mom's room where she was sitting on her bed..doing some work. I went to her, rested my head in her lap and in a split second she left whatever she was doing. She asked me how I was feeling..if I wanted to have something..but I didnt reply..!

The very next moment I realised her fingers ruffling through my hair..her sweet voice singing a lullaby to me..and then I smiled..:)

That amazing sense of security..the assurance that she will always be there for me..in every possible difficulty and unexplainable happiness..! Her unconditional love and affection, which is so pure that even God bows to it..the satisfaction and joy of just being there with her..all seemed to heal me! 

And that precious moment made me feel like the luckiest kid on earth.....!

Kal Ho Na Ho...

"Each today well lived makes yesterday a dream of happiness and each tomorrow a vision of hope. Look, therefore to this one day, for it and alone is life!"


When I came across these lines, they made me think..how busy everyone around is..! Even if they are not doing anything, they are busy worrying either about the future..or pondering upon what they did in the past..!


I am not saying that I never worry like this..I do! After all I like to keep myself busy too. Randomly thinking about what opinions people have of me, what am I going to do next..or currently How am I gonna do in my exams this time? :P


Thus begins the chain of thoughts with so many links that I mostly have to break it before I reach to a place where I am not even able to backtrack its origin..! And then I come back to PRESENT..the most cherished gift of all..! Something which we have in our hand, to which we can act upon in real time..!


When I enjoy every moment of my day doing what I love, at the end of the day that feeling of satisfaction brings a natural smile on my face. :) The day might include doing nothing important but that was my choice..my way of spending it!  Like right now I am happy that I am writing this post coz I wanted to do this...! 


So even in this busy life, value those who are close..take out time for them..& most importantly for yourself..."haso, jiyo, muskurao..kya pata kal ho na ho?" ;)

'BAk BAk' theory of being happy...:D

I really have many shades..Sometimes I am an innocent child, a sensible friend, helping & caring sister, and a responsible daughter...
but at times I act as a stupid & spoiled child, an idiotic friend ,a mean sister and a reckless daughter....


There's nothing special or unique about it. Everyone plays a number of roles in their lives. Neither the joy of being good and responsible is everlasting...nor is the guilt of being imprudent..!


What actually matters is how you see your life..how you eventually end up being happy irrespective of the mistakes you made coz you love to smile.. coz you love yourself..! :) 


I have my own ways of cheering myself up. Whenever I am very happy or very sad, I tend to talk (more often when i am happy! ). There are fairly less people with whom I share everything, but those who really know me..know about my ability to go on & on about absolutely anything. And when I do that...It feels so very light..!! 


Frankly speakin this helps me..a lot..!! Some people do not talk about what troubles them or what they desire. Though it very much depends from person to person, on their nature and attitude as to how much they want to share. But those who have never done it..to them I'll say..at least try talking once..it really feels good!! 
All you need is the right person to share it with..;)

Silence speaks...!!

Those unsaid words..those unexpressed emotions..my heart racing when you look straight into my eyes..i want to feel it all..


I imagine you there..we are with each other and I feel a strong series of emotions wondering what you are thinking at that moment..feeling as if you caught me red handed when you look at me and i was already staring at you..and the very next moment its as if your eyes are figuring me out. Then, for once..u got me...the real me! I just wish time could stop at that very instant..so that i can live it...a little longer..
I wake up then..the dream is over!


And one day I actually got to live that moment..When we were by each other's side..
I wanted to keep talking..yet I preferred silence..
I wanted to listen to you..yet you offered silence..


Some people say that silence speaks more than words but at that moment anxiety was so much that I was unable to hear those words.I felt weird and  I wished that time should fly away instead of stopping because i felt uneasy..
And then it was over...the real one!


Nothing but silence prevailed between us. It sort of connected us..! Then after a while, it became a sweet memory..! 
And I wish for that moment again...the real one..!!!

F.R.I.E.N.D.S...:)

You know what is the best part of your life? Every moment of it..Right from the naughty and playful childhood days when school was something you wanted to miss, holidays were like heaven with holiday homework seeming to be a punishment..to the days when we leave school which then seems so dear..so lovely!!


And then College..that teenage life...friends to die for, crushes, love to live for..and then the realization that you are grown up now. Suddenly, you become aware that you need to be something, have your own identity..!!!


And during all these times..you have those wonderful people around you that become a part of your little world..your FRIENDS!


Frankly speaking I never understood "friendship" for a long time..for me it was just some sort of companionship..but some very special people made me realise its much more than that..its precious! And those are the people whom I love, I trust, with them I can just be myself, for them I am an open book..and to them I dedicate this post..! 


Its for all those who keep on telling me "You are mad!" when i do something wrong..
who say.."why the hell do u think so much idiot!?!" when I bug them with my stupid thoughts..
who say "one more tear and I will kill you" when i cry..
who tell me "love your smile"  to cheer me up...
And for all those whom I trust to be always there for me!!


For them I am predictable enough and they are for me...yet there are always so many surprises awaiting us...............

What "SHE" feels- The other side...

The sweeter you are too me, the more I yearn for it..the more normal things get, the more complicated it feels..the more you talk to me, the more I think about you..why in the world am I in such a situation? I don't want to admit the truth. The truth that I want you to hate me, I want myself to hate you-the person whom I liked so much once..& deep inside I think i still do!!


Its just it was so difficult to get to a place where I can ignore you but I keep on losing that position....I have been dawdling in this phase of my life..controlling my emotions, my heart..& I just don't know what I want..I seriously don't...!


I am uncertain..I feel all that I should not..why is it difficult to be myself with you? Why can't you be just another guy for me when I am just another girl..? Just a friend..not much into your life..! Its hard for me to concentrate on other things....I am not able to think properly, one moment I am happy & suddenly I am again lost...!! I don't wanna be a baby..I don't want to be vulnerable..I can help myself..but its just your support that makes life so damn easy....without any hurdles..!


I often tell myself to look for a life without you...I believe I can do much better without you..aim higher..achieve more..but that is just for a brief time and then my heart makes me come back again & again.............................

Being Human..

Small things often make life so beautiful reminding you that its not a complicated web of problems after all..!! A 20 min nap in the bus refreshes you and vanishes your tiredness, a 10 min talk with your best friend with whom you can just talk about anything, about whatever you feel renders you happiness...the adorable smile which an innocent baby returns when you smile at him and the satisfaction you get when you think you are doing something right in your life..

It is so weird..one moment its all so simple..everything falls into place like the pieces of a jigsaw puzzle and suddenly in another moment it becomes all haphazard..!

For us, socialization is a very important factor affecting our life as people around us matter a lot.Talking of people, Homo sapiens across the world are available in so many varieties that it is almost impossible to put them into categories. But still sometimes you ought to trust yourself being worthy to at least try doing so. 

Apart from the varied physical appearances (which actually does not matter much) every individual has a different & a unique psychology, which is a very intricate and interesting topic indeed..!! What surprises me the most is the way we handle every individual around us.For some, we are open books, some people can never understand us, some can never be understood, & in case of some we don't even try to understand.. 

No matter what is the status of a person in our life, every individual with whom we interact plays a role in our life in some way or the other. Among these people, there are ones who always inspire us, motivate us, show their faith in us..our mentors...our parents and teachers..! Then, there are the ones we can talk to, who can understand us well, can be trusted & with whom we share our thoughts..a friend..a companion! And then a few lucky people meet that someone..that special ONE!! Though I consider "the ONE" story as something which does not happens so often in reality..but sometimes it is just amusing to let yourself be in that fantasy world where "the ONE" exists..!  

Our amazing journey revolves around these people...who make our lives easier and simpler.. providing a new experience on every turn..the happy ones give us motivation while the sad ones make us strong..! And of course, the search for the special ONE is always on..;)

Simply me...!

This is my first blog post, & as the title suggests this is about me and I wanna share some of my thoughts.
I am quite a normal girl with a tinge of weirdness. Now at times that makes me wonder because mostly it turns out that I am just the right amount of weird but sometimes I fell as if I am crazy! But that is okay..coz I like the way i am! Precisely speaking "Main apni favourite hoon!" 


Anyways, I am the kind of person who is definitely not in the favor of leading a monotonous life. Of course, no one loves problems in their lives but I believe that without them it just won't feel like LIFE!! You gotta admit that it is an awesome feeling when you overcome your problems or achieve something you've desired for long..! Sometimes you need those tears to remind you how precious and priceless that smile is..:)


At times in life, I love to take a break..to pause all the thoughts in my mind and frankly speaking i "think" a lot..! Thus, the break becomes a necessity sometimes..So i usually reach for my earphones and head to my terrace. And then its just the melodious tunes pouring into my ears, trying to clear the thoughts in my mind and I begin to observe everything around me.
Nature has its own way of expressing its happiness..& when it does, everything just seems BEAUTIFUL!
Like the amazing wind which makes an entire tree dance with joy..the raindrop which makes a leaf proud of its beauty..the awesome sunset making the floating clouds adorable..!
The gloomy dusk when sun bids goodbye and with a sweet smile the moon arrives..sometimes crescent, sometimes complete spreading the milky moonlight..the time when birds flock back to their nests, dotting the sky with different patterns and sometimes that mind blowing breeze that ruffles through my hair & makes me realize...yeah!! Life is beautiful......


And after feeling all this there is an instantaneous smile on my face...& i become ready to move on......